I've had a lot on my mind just lately, which is why I'm lacking in artwork by now.
Most of it's more to do with life really, then it is online to friends.
I wanted to try Disney Infinity again, only this time on digital with Steam,
but I couldn't help but wait too long, and right now growing more in the urge to play it,
which is pretty sad, considering all I liked of it was the Motorbike with sidecar, which was the thing I dream of in GTA 5.
Talking of GTA, right now I'm trying to save up to get me own Xbox One, and hopefully have plans to get the games I've always wanted by then,
All my life I wanted to play Dead Rising 3, and I thought I'd look into Dying Light, which all seem's promising as it reminds me of Dead Island...only, seemingly better.
A lot of good games get you so hyped up, it's always released way before Christmas, maybe even before Halloween.
Seemingly I tried out Super Mario Maker, at first it all seemed fun, but then I figured it all get's blown out so quickly,
esply on the fact that you have to wait for new items to come when the game feel's like it, or for however long you play it.
Because normally, I don't find Amiibos much of a point, because all they do really is unlock features in-game,
and playing as Sonic or Megaman would be out of the question in Mario Party.
Pretty much so much was on my mind, I couldn't help but just take it all out.
More sad to say, Deep Silver decided to discontinue with Dead Island Epidemic on Steam, for...I dunno what...
But I've shown so much like in it, and so much to give for, because I thought it deserved more then Team Bortress 2 does.
(Sry for calling it that, I just had such a dislike it since it all became F2P, not to mention the all-so tiresome money-ripping of Gabe Newell to give you much effort lost on a small piece of polygon...)
I've even promised myself to retire from TF2 as soon as the Mettle Guns thing makes my ranking on Gold. (Even though I still had contracts to burn off with.)
The overall of it...meh, wasn't worth anything. Struck up to go for gold, and Newell struck and looted me yet again. I hate myself for trying to be perfect sometimes.
I'm just glad it was all over after 5 Years of dead-weighting all my experience of action in defend of team play. So now I'm thinking of resting it all off,
but in the end, it all kind of felt there's nothing much for it. There is Killing Floor 2, which is really the thing I focus for now, since Epidemic's servers'll shut down on the 15th this month.
It was fun, yeah, it was really my kind of game to begin with, even though most of my dreams for it went up in smoke. I would always expect for them to put Logan Carter & John Morgan in the game.
I've had afew problems on DeviantART as well. (But like I said; more of focused on Life then online...but even online has me on the edge.)
Afew friends I can't talk to because either they're busy or not interested, and seem's like recently my gallery's kind of feeling dried up in comments and faves.
I dunno why, but I've been hoping that one day I had at least 3 comments in a single picture, but...nothing. <=\
And as for when a "Friend" of mine mentioned to me that "None'll bring criticism to you, because they're afraid I'd block them". 2 Words: "Bull Shit".
Although...I can't help but think his/her theory is right, knowing how dry some of my pictures comments are, not that I mind too much,
but it kind of bothers Me how it's not given at least afew in another few pictues time.
Mostly, when I reunited with a friend one month ago, I kind of fear that he's not 100% forgiving to Me, as of now he rejected my Art-trade offer to him/her,
and now I'm just worried that nothing can changed from what happened that year ago when we had a fight, and then it's all blown over.
I just dunno what to think of to say, if he allows Me to talk to him/her. (It just bugged me at most when I offer to gift someone, they don't offer one back.)
(I can normally gift someone without complaints or anything on my mind to make me feel annoyed...but to some people who I really like and trust best...it just bugs me too much.)
Is it probably Me? Is my art-style being milked too many times, it get's boring? Am I still doing Sonic-style, even though I mentioned that I went and quit the fan base style? I don't give away gift-art anymore?
It just brings my anxiety levels to a new golden age. I'm cured from the sickness I had over the past 5 months. (It was due to hunger, which was my fault for not trying to be healthy)
I'm aware of doing artwork to show my friends and others what I'm capable of, but I'm also limited at times on what to think of doing.
But, yeah, boo-hoo story aside and not to spare feelings...I just felt too much was on my mind and I had to get it all out to tell you peeps what's been going on lately.
But in anyway, if you do understand, I'm grateful, and I'm always grateful to anyone as long as they're grateful to Me as their friend and supportive one at that.
And if you have any regrets to say, even if they're bad ones...I'm always here to listen.